Anxious or nah?

                                                                    Elliot Moss - Slip

It's been days since I last slept. I hate that kind of pain you experience when you're exhausted and all you could ever ask for is some hours of sleep, but you just can't get any.. The struggle to remain calm despite all the unbearable exterior stress-causing facts.. The desperation to run from it all and leave to NOWHERE.

I'm not going to apologize for the f'd up intro. I don't even know how the hell am I able to write in these shitty conditions!

Man o' man, what have all those insecurities done to me.. Poor little me.
I still want to talk about all those assholes who make fun of other people's insecurities, but what good is that gonna do? Even those who surround me and say they love me are doing the same: They make fun of your weaknesses, your insecurities and your fears! They talk rude to you whenever you're anxious, not giving a shit about the fact that YOU CANNOT CONTROL IT! They say you are just being silly, they call you names and humiliate you then pretend to care for you and love you.
They make fun of who you are and seem to hate all about you, saying you're a ball of insecurities and anxiety.. And then they want you there by their sides, backing them up whenever they face the tiniest problems.. The strange thing is; You always do as they want!
You know, one time a "friend" of mine got into a tiny argument with her mother over something you'll definately think was silly, she cried and screamed, she panicked and got so frustrated that no one could even talk to her .. Guess who understood her frustration and got her out of it?

Man o' man I bet it makes you feel horrible whenever you think about how bothersome they make you feel like you've become whenever anxiety knocks on your door in public. You also hate the fact that nobody could ever understand why you tend to isolate yourself at home and not get out with anybody.. You hate that it made them leave.
And now you just hate everything about mental and psychological disorders!

Here's what I've always wanted to say to those who hurt other people:
You'll never know how an anxious person struggles to go to the closest shop to their home to buy some necessary stuff! You'll never know the amount of frustration they try to deal with, as people lay eyes on them while they're crossing the street! You'll never see pain in their broken smiles; but they do understand, and they don't ask for any favor, so why don't you be a decent human bein' and show respect? They struggle on a daily basis and do their best to deal with it, no matter the difficulties, they're true worriors and you are not!

Please be nice, to everybody .. I'm not telling you to smile for anybody you come across or to take everybody out for a ride, I'm only asking you to respect people, because you never know what people went or still go through, you never know when they'll reach their breaking point so don't be the reason they do .. They won't tell you they live with any kind of disorder (unless it's an eating disorder, then they'll have to tell you if you're gonna cook for them or take them out for dinner), they won't explain their pain to you, not only because they don't want to sound like they want your pity, but also because they cannot explain what happens to them since they don't really uderstand it, they know nothing about its origins and even if they knew, they'd hide it from you to avoid any unpleasant act that might come outta you ..

You see how much a simple word can affect a person?

Please be careful and watch your behaviour.