Dear you,
at some point, you'll be twenty, and then you'll never be twenty again.
Don't damage yourself, you might regret it by the time you're twenty. Please don't damage yourself. Don't spend nights crying on the floor in the dark, don't belittle yourself, don't settle down for less than you deserve to please anyone, don't destroy your self-esteem, you are definitely gonna need it by the time you're twenty. You don't have to give in to darkness, and believe me when I say, that once you give in to it, there's no coming back.
As it is, just keep telling yourself that you have no time to be anything but happy, even if life is being hard on you, the young still-learning-to-survive you, the fragile you, the pretty with the sad eyes you.
You do not have to be somebody's honey to feel like you deserve to live a good life. You don't have to own your crush's approval to feel loved and appreciated. Love and appreciate yourself while you can, and eventually, you'll be forever cherished, wanted and fought for. Kiss your own fingertips, comfort yourself, play with your own hair, introduce your own self to new music, books, beverages, tasty food.. Take yourself out if nobody else does, go for a run or a swim by yourself if there ain't nobody who'd love to go with you. Knowing that they don't want to take care of you is your power, you'll know you're not with the wrong people, so until the right ones bump into you, you've gotta love yourself unconditionnally, and that, my darling, is how you'll stay fully ready to receive and accept lots of love from the right ones when the time has come.
But all I've been writing is making my heart ache so bad I feel it burning in great flames inside.. And all the advice I've been giving is all I wish I have been told many years ago.
You DO NOT want this to be your life. You do not want to grow up and see how years went by while you were locked in a room missing out on life. You do not want to look back and see nothing but trauma and negativity, and then nothing. And you certainly do not wish to live an empty life where days are all the same and regret is the spice for every moment that goes by.
You are worth more than anyone will make you think you are. You are more than one universe; knowing that for starters, you are your own universe, and even if you do not know it, you are, were and/or will be somebody else's universe.
If you're still not twenty, you still can get shit done so that when the time has come and when you're twenty, you'll make it an unforgettable year, and make the most of every minute of every day.
You'll still get your heart broken either by love or friendship, and maybe both. You're still gonna lie on the floor being hardly able to catch a breath, eyes blood red, battling countless monsters thinking that the night will never end, but at the very least, you know you've had amazing times in your life, and there will always be room for some more fun even the day after you thought you've lost the great war against the demons in your head.
You're still gonna have some of those days where you'd rather stay in bed all day not seeing or talking to anyone, and YES, you're still gonna feel so down in times, but hey, by the time you're twenty or more, there will be people who'll fight your battles, and hold on tight to you even when you turn into your worst self. You're still gonna have frightening nightmares, but if the days are bright, and the company is right, you'll always have the strength to fight.
Love yourself before it's too late.
Love yourself before you can no longer take a compliment.
Love yourself before you can no longer be able to fit in within people.
Love yourself before your demons take the wheel, ruining everything you have left.
Love yourself and I promise you that whatever scared you in the past will never do anymore.
Love yourself, and as for me, I wish I was told these things many years ago..
As it is, just keep telling yourself that you have no time to be anything but happy, even if life is being hard on you, the young still-learning-to-survive you, the fragile you, the pretty with the sad eyes you.
You do not have to be somebody's honey to feel like you deserve to live a good life. You don't have to own your crush's approval to feel loved and appreciated. Love and appreciate yourself while you can, and eventually, you'll be forever cherished, wanted and fought for. Kiss your own fingertips, comfort yourself, play with your own hair, introduce your own self to new music, books, beverages, tasty food.. Take yourself out if nobody else does, go for a run or a swim by yourself if there ain't nobody who'd love to go with you. Knowing that they don't want to take care of you is your power, you'll know you're not with the wrong people, so until the right ones bump into you, you've gotta love yourself unconditionnally, and that, my darling, is how you'll stay fully ready to receive and accept lots of love from the right ones when the time has come.
But all I've been writing is making my heart ache so bad I feel it burning in great flames inside.. And all the advice I've been giving is all I wish I have been told many years ago.
You DO NOT want this to be your life. You do not want to grow up and see how years went by while you were locked in a room missing out on life. You do not want to look back and see nothing but trauma and negativity, and then nothing. And you certainly do not wish to live an empty life where days are all the same and regret is the spice for every moment that goes by.
You are worth more than anyone will make you think you are. You are more than one universe; knowing that for starters, you are your own universe, and even if you do not know it, you are, were and/or will be somebody else's universe.
If you're still not twenty, you still can get shit done so that when the time has come and when you're twenty, you'll make it an unforgettable year, and make the most of every minute of every day.
You'll still get your heart broken either by love or friendship, and maybe both. You're still gonna lie on the floor being hardly able to catch a breath, eyes blood red, battling countless monsters thinking that the night will never end, but at the very least, you know you've had amazing times in your life, and there will always be room for some more fun even the day after you thought you've lost the great war against the demons in your head.
You're still gonna have some of those days where you'd rather stay in bed all day not seeing or talking to anyone, and YES, you're still gonna feel so down in times, but hey, by the time you're twenty or more, there will be people who'll fight your battles, and hold on tight to you even when you turn into your worst self. You're still gonna have frightening nightmares, but if the days are bright, and the company is right, you'll always have the strength to fight.
How can we yearn for love if we don't give it to our own selves?Love yourself.
Love yourself before it's too late.
Love yourself before you can no longer take a compliment.
Love yourself before you can no longer be able to fit in within people.
Love yourself before your demons take the wheel, ruining everything you have left.
Love yourself and I promise you that whatever scared you in the past will never do anymore.
Love yourself, and as for me, I wish I was told these things many years ago..
I love your writings, some english grammar mistakes but still you are going places, and what makes me more glad is that is comes from a girl with my name, but I prefer Bacha
ReplyDeleteBest of luck in your writings :)
Thank you for the support and the kind words, Amal :) It really means the world to me, knowing that my writings are of some value to the readers.
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